people on the net calls me lunna while people i truly know knows me as mariana dewi rachmawati. got into this world 17 years ago on february march 29. had spent a year abroad as an exchange student, now i'm back home in bontang, east borneo, indonesia. as a phlegmatic-sanguine, i get excited very easily but then i get bored after a while. i pretty much a happy-go-lucky person, but i can be a big dreamer sometimes. i love to be inspired and inspiring. i'm living life and loving it. x) i realized that my habit trying to please everybody won't work in REAL WORLD. yes i need to speak up for myself. -____-" anyways. you can find me on friendster and facebook.

take the sat and toefl, preparing for the scholarship and university stuff. i really need to study and stop procrastinating! oh jeez! and i'm getting my Confirmation Sacrament in november. wheee! i'm so excited! x) get a job like teaching middle schoolers english sounds pretty cool. being a radio host would be awesome too, though. or maybe work in a clothing store. x) last but not least, i still do think that i need to lose some weight. LOL

get the scholarship i wanted and graduate from high school with awesome grades are two of the most important things. and i wish to made my parents proud of me and stop bugging them for money. LOL i wanna have the opportunity to have a job and live around the world like an ambassador or something. being a freelance writer is also one of my deepest desire. i'd also like to learn languages and psychology. ahh. if only i could do tons of things at once! :] and yes i wish to be a 17-year-old for the rest of my life, that maybe edward cullen were real and turned me into a vampire. ROFL

sara bareilles - city
paramore - crushcrushcrush
disturbed - inside the fire
cascada - everytime we touch
rihanna - take a bow
nickelback - savin' me
mika - lollipop

amanda
avoo
cc icha
cc putry
cyclers
conspiracy
desska
diaz
dhimas
dimas dhea'
donat
etta
fasci
firman
fragaria
gadis
galuh
ghina
heru
ikings94
ipang
julliet
kk ulie
karina c
kiki
lhiia
lya
lyan ayu
lyne
mel
mitha
naras
nurind
poetry
sachroel
sammy
sapibunting
sasko
sha
sippa
synna
tanti
tiwi
uthe
vaiionz
vee
violinista
windha
zha
zhenn

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i just got this from fragaria.
and these are the rules;
1) Put the logo on your blog.
2) Add a link to the person who awarded you.
3) Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4) Add links to those blogs on yours.
5) Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.

soooo. i guess here go the blogs that i chose;
.::. aavo.
.::. zhenn.
.::. cc icha.
.::. etta-chan.
.::. uthe.

i can only give you five people.
at least for now. =\

anyways.. i've been thinking about something lately.
i will post it in my next post.
cause now i gotta go and finish my geography homework.
yes i need to be a GEEK! xp
just for this one school year, of course. lol

have you ever had a bff?
i'm sure you all have. well. or should've. =]
anyways, let's just say you do have a bff. and she or he is like the cheese on your macaroni.
but what if at some point you have to leave your bff cause u gotta move somewhere far away for a while?
and when you come back at where you were before, your bff already got another friends that might be more fun or whatever than you.
then she/he just kinda leave you or step back like she/he never knew you before!
what will you do or how will you react?

in my case, i tried to talk to my bff. i asked her if there's something wrong..
i mean if she thinks her friends a lot more fun than me or maybe she thinks now i really changed in some ways she doesn't like..
the point is, i wanna know if she still wanna be my bff or not.
she's like all quiet and she said, 'aku sungkan ama kamu, wii..'
and i was just like.. all quiet. and looking at her.
i understand that she may feels a little bit awkward since i just got back from somewhere far away and sh*t, but i mean c'mon!
we've been bff since we were in 3rd grade, it's been 7 years til now!
did it leave nothing at all? all the things that we went through together for all those stinkin years?

i do miss my host family, friends, teachers and even richmond, but hey, that never means that i don't miss all these people back here.
i'm trying to adjust myself back to indonesia and it's really hard, even though it's suppose to be my own home.
i'm trying to talk to all these people at home again, trying to figure out what's hip today and happening so i don't just stare at them and understand nothing at all when they talk to me.
and i'm studying harder than everybody else, cause i know they're one step ahead than me cause i lost what they've learned in 11th grade.
they even told me to fill my 11th grade report card up if i wanna go to university in indonesia, which i think is kinda stupid cause i didn't just have fun while i'm in the states! i went to school, you idiot school people! x(
and this bff issue adds some more weigh on my shoulders.

well i'm sorry that i missed a year of her life time to pursue my own dream.
sorry that i changed, but c'mon everybody also changed.
but blaming and punishing me this way really isn't fair at all!
i know she was busy moving to a new house, that's why i didn't wanna bug her with my calls and sh*t.
i tried to join her and all her friends, but she doesn't seem to care.
neither do her friends. =[
i sent her a letter cause i'm too scared to tell her all these things by myself, and i don't think she cares either. =\
i know that's a very lunatic of me to sent her that letter, but i really can't say anything cause she never even call me or come over to my house anymore like she usually does.
and she was always with her group of friends, so what can i do? =\
well what else she wants me to do? does she want me to forget all that f**kin years that we went through?
oh God. i just don't see all the 'better things' in that. really. =[

please don't see me like i'm all that great and sh*t, cause i don't think i am.
i'm just me, i'm just trying to be myself.
it sucks soooooooo bad when they call me all that, 'amrik, amrik!' and all that sh*t cause i mean please! don't make it sounds so great and stuff.

ugh. that bugged the living crap outta me for the whole vacation! =\
but now i can face it more easily.
well. i just do what she also does, just try not to care.
is there any suggestion?

i copied this like years ago from someone's blog *sorry i don't remember whose =p*
for some odd reason i always like to do this quiz, so i do it over and over again when i'm bored. like what i just felt a couple minutes ago. xD
well i guess no harm posting it here.
you can also do it if you want. =]
and i used slinky for this, fyi. *this is a very unimportant information xp*

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RULES:
1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer to the question.
4.) NO CHEATING!!!

1.) How am I feeling today?
rob thomas - ever the same

2.) Where will I get married?
avril lavigne - nobody's home

3.) What is my best friend’s theme song?
nickleback - photograph

4.) What is/was highschool like?
avenged sevenfold - reminescence

5.) What is the best thing about me?
danity kane - damage

6.) How is today going to be?
s club 7 - never had a dream come true

7.) What is in store for this weekend?
simon webbe - no worries

8.) What song describes my parents?
sean kingston - beatuful girls *lol whatever this suppose to mean. =p*

9.) How is my life going?
3 doors down - here without you. *who's 'you'? =\*

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
green day - warning. =D

11.) How does the world see me?
madonna feat justin - 4 minutes. lol

12.) What do my friends really think of me?
smash mouth - all star.

13) Do people secretly lust after me?
aaron carter - do you remember.

14.) How can I make myself happy?
coco lee - reflection

15.) What should I do with my life?
christina aguilera - i turn to you

16.) Will I ever have children?
creed - one last breath. O______o"

17.) What is some good advice?
teddy geiger - 7 days without you

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
green day - burn out.

19.) What does everyone else think my current life?
marion raven - in spite of me.

20.) What type of men/women do you like?
david cook - i don't wanna miss a thing.

21.) Will you get married?
goo goo dolls - better days. x)

22.) What should I do with my love life?
backstreet boys - larger than life.

23.) Where will you live?
goo goo dolls - broad way. WHOOOOOOOO!

24.) What will your dying words be?
mariah carey and whitney houston - when you believe.

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anyway, this is just some random question.
what's your opinion towards gay and bisexual community?
i don't mean no harm at all by asking that, just doing a tiny research for my short story. =]
thanks!

Labels: bored, quizzie

well hello there.
how's life treating you guys all? =]
um. oh well. as a first post.. i really have no idea what to write.
i guess it's better to introduce myself, don't u think?
it's lunna, aka mariana dewi rachmawati.
people call me lunna on the net as a nick. so don't ask where that name comes from. =\
as a girl, i'm happy that i finally 17 years old. but i'm sad cause then i have to leave this very wonderful moments of high-schooler.
i really wish to stay in this age forever. if only i could. *edward cullen, please transform me into a vampire! lol*
i'm currently living in bontang, east borneo, indonesia.
and to tell you the truth, i'm kinda sick of it and can't wait to get out of here again, FAST! =p
don't mean to brag or anything, but i'm a former exchange student, actually.
i would really like to help you guys if you have any questions or are interested in stuff like that.
just feel free to ask, and i'll try my best to help. x)
hoping to get a scholarship and come back to the states soon and see my host family and friends up there. *please cross your fingers for me!*
i'm apparently still trying to adjust back to indonesia as i just came back a month ago.
unfortunately i have to finish my high school here in sma vidatra.
i really wish i could just graduate up there in states, but oh well! x[
and since i'm not repeating my 11th grade here *now i'm in 12th grade*, i have like TONS of work to do.
and i know that i gotta put myself together. before it's too late. =\
but it's okay, i know i can do it. WHOOOO~! go dewii go!
oh. rakuen07 was my blog before, so you may know me before. or not. =p
mmm. what else can i say? oh. music is my life. slinky is my best friend and he's always be around me, everywhere.
one of you have an idea who slinky is? well. 'slinky' is actually my ipod. i love him so much, it even has a gender--it's a BOY! xp
*i know that's kinda lunatic of me, but hey everyone has their own lunatic sides. so who cares! lol*
i like any kinda music, except screamo and rap. no offense though!
hugs are a cure, they always keep me safe and i think that's why i love em so much.
give hugs, not drugs. YEAAAAAAH! xD
more information? i guess you can ask me personally.
last but not least, i just wanna say that dummy dums is eventually opened!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!
you may ask what's the meaning of dummy dums.
well. dumdums is a kinda sucker candy that i really like when i was still in states. *my favorites are banana and butterscotch! yum yum!*
and i just kinda thought about that candy when i made this blog.
soooooo. that's all about it. lol
well i guess i'll talk to you guys later!